I never got to announce our very First EVER pregnancy…….we were soooooo excited and couldn’t wait to tell everyone!!! I made it to 6 weeks that ended with a miscarriage. Back in June the infertility specialists just told us that our only option was IVF and that are chances of conceiving naturally are very slim to basically no chance at all. At this point, Our hearts were torn on what decisions to make because we are still paying bills from my past Endo surgeries and our first failed IVF which IVF costs $20,000 out of pocket because no insurance covers growing a family unless you work at Starbucks!! Imagine that!! Lol!!! You would think that working in the health care field employees would have good health benefits but in all truth…..it’s horrible. All we could do was pray and share our hearts desires with God. We both finally made the decision to at least try IVF one more time. Right before we were about to pull a loan we found out that we were pregnant and it was on Edwards birthday July 14th!! I remember busting through the bathroom door to our bed room and screaming,”OH MY GOSH!!! WE’RE PREGNANT!!!!” I was ugly crying and Edward jump out of bed and didn’t believe me at first! We were so use to the negative sign that it took him by surprise for sure!! We cried so much and thanked God for our miracle. We only told close family and friends because we wanted prayers and support for sure. I felt all the pregnancy symptoms that I never thought I would feel……the swollen and tender breasts, definitely hungry all the time but I did feel more energy rather than feeling tired so that was a bit different. It was a good feeling that I will always cherish and hope to be there soon again. August 2,2019 was the last day I was with child and miss carried at 2am…….I’ve never felt such deep hurt and pain until this day. I was so sure that all was going to be well and our journey of infertility was finally over. I knew I couldn’t call into work that Friday morning so I kept a straight face and made through the day by the grace of God. I remember finally walking through my home door, seeing my husband Edward and just embracing him so tight. We cried together and let out all the pain we had harbored through out that day……it was the longest day of both our lives. It honestly took us a good while to heal and we still struggle with moments of sadness but I know my God is a faithful God! He has heard our prayers and has seen our tears 2kings 20:5 We still see this pregnancy as a miracle…..for almost 7 years we had never seen a positive pregnancy test and we did! The doctors said that we could not conceive naturally and by the Grace of God we did! I don’t know what our future holds but we are at peace in knowing that God is in control.
Romans 8:28 And we know that IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS for the good of those who love him
Luke 1:37 For with God nothing shall be impossible
Joshua 1:9 Be strong and courageous for the LORD your GOD will be with you wherever you go.
Luke1:45 blessed is she who BELIEVED that the LORD would fulfill his promises to her
Romans 8:18 the pain that you’ve been feeling can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
Exodus 14:14 The LORD himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.
Hebrews 6:19 this hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for souls. It leads us through the curtain into Gods inner sanctuary.
Hebrews 11:11 and by FAITH even Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to bear children because she considered him faithful who had made the promise.
Isaiah 40:31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
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